Hello, Love Muffins,

Super excited to be a producer of a Short Film called Untold Secrets/The Flipside Director, Dwayne Brown. Check out the community news clip about the unique way of educating the audience of Mental Health Awareness and Cancer Awareness of the upcoming premiere, on September 22, 2023, @ The Bowie Performing Arts Center in Bowie, Maryland.

Click here to purchase tickets https://bowiecenter.org/events/

I am very excited about learning how to use iMovie. I am sure there are many new ways to create a trailer short films etc., but I learned a new thing so I wanted to share what I have started. Prayerfully, the finished product will be done before the year is out. I have been working on getting my journey out to share with the world. So here is a snippet of the journey. Stay tuned.

Hey Love Muffins,

It’s WOW Wednesday! Sooooo, how was your day? Today, I have been completely present. I know life moves so fast that if you are not in tuned you will miss the blessings God has downloaded in you for the day. I used my time wisely today. Normally I would lay in bed for a long time and want to sleep the day away but today I felt the urge to empower myself today and listen to some encouraging words from a few speakers. I like to listen to one in particular, Dr. Dellaterro McNeal. I don’t get books often but I do listen to audible books to motivate me while I do household things around the house. Mostly when I exercise. I fell off that wagon months ago but I am motivated to do that once again and what helps is listening to motivational audible books.

I have been not really in a funk but in isolation for a few weeks. I have had some health challenges and the devil has been trying to grab a hold of my thoughts. I am grateful for the test because it is showing me how strong I really am. It’s funny how we have down moments and with hope, faith and believe we are out of it before we realize what has happened. Well let me just speak for myself. For example, while going through my divorce. I knew I wanted it to happen long before it actually happened. I already knew my worth and knew I couldn’t do another day of the marriage. I am a faith based person and I believe I stayed alot longer than I should have because I wanted to fight for it. I didn’t want to give up. We had both agreed that Divorce was not going to be an option but it seems like when it happened it happened so quick it was like I felt lost. I didn’t think of what to do afterwards I just knew I wasn’t able to give him what he needed and vice versa. I mean 15 years almost 16 years in and we have come to let’s just agree to disagree permanently. I knew I did all that could be done and exhausted all resources to the point it was almost life or death for me. I chose me. 5 months later he chose to marry again. Well, am I hurt? No, I pray and hope he finds the happiness he is looking for. It’s just another test to build my strength. It is taking me time to adjust. I have had 2 life challenges happen to me back to back. Well, actually I had been stressed for years questioning my marriage, which lead to stress at work with a supervisor, Battling Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma Cancer and then the divorce, whole new lifestyle change by living on my own for the first time in my life with 2 children, shingles, pneumonia, after effects of cancer, and the blessing of it all I got through it all. I trusted God through it all. I held on to his unchanging hands. I trusted God and was one on one with God. There were times I thought back and knew that it was all God. How do you battle cancer without family and friends coming to visit you due to a pandemic? Going to Dr. Appts alone. Going through Surgeries alone, going through Chemotherapy alone and coming home to a full but empty house. One hug, One kiss, One let me lay with you would have been nice. How do you not have any affection through the most devastating time of my life? But GOD. When I closed my eyes at night I would squeeze a white polar bear real tight as I lay on the couch for 2 years, couldn’t lay in a bed with someone who has no hope or love for God and who can’t pray or hold me and tell God, thank you for wrapping your loving arms around me and letting me lay at your feet as you give me rest. I also kept saying Yall about witnessing a miracle. It doesn’t make sense now but in the end it will all make sense. It’s not the end because the blessings still continue to flow. I always say Trust God and Trust the process. He knows best. He brings you to it and he will bring you through. Words have power. My church has been doing this spirit training that has equipped me with what I needed. I know when I have moments when I want to be angry, stressed, worried I know I just think of things that are good, pure and true. When you can pull from God’s promises it shows God you trust Him anyway, no matter what. The test God’s way of letting you know you are the chosen one for this test and he didn’t bring it to you to fail he brought it to you to strengthen you. That song by Whitney Houston comes to mind, “I didn’t know my own strength”
I didn’t know my own strength
And I crashed down and I tumbled but I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn’t know my own strength
We don’t know our own strength until God tests us. Just know your test will take you to a higher level of faith. Allow God to work in your life because the adversities can’t be done alone and the only consistent thing will be God and God alone. The next time you face a challenge, roll your sleeves and let God know you trust him. If He trusts you with this adversity you can definitely trust Him to get you through with his grace and mercy. He has you covered. Will you pass the test? He only gives his test to his toughest soldiers. So keep the faith, trust God and Trust the process. Love you fam! #BeIntentional #BeConsistent #BePresent

Hello Love Muffins, 

I pray all is well and going well with you and your family.  Today, as I lay in bed I always give thanks to see one more day.  As we are halfway into the new year of 2023.   God has kept you for 6 months of this year. What a blessing! There have been challenges that have crossed your paths and you wondered how you will get past them. Two words, come to mind, BUT GOD.  I must be very honest and transparent with you. The last three years of my life have been such an inspirational journey. I have experienced, cancer, divorce, shingles, pneumonia, and spiritual warfare.  There were plenty of days the devil wanted to whisper in my ear how I will never get thru my fears.  Fear of surviving thru cancer, the fear of feeling like a failure because my marriage didn’t last, and feeling like at age 50 plus I should be further than where I thought I should be with my life.  Again, two words come to mind, BUT GOD.  As I would sit in my quiet time with God I would like to thank Him for all the things I have gone thru, for without it, I wouldn’t know my own strength, not to mention other thoughts that would consume me that would try to take me down the road of depression.  I kept repeating to myself, I am a child of God, if God brought me to it then He will bring me thru it. If He can trust me with it then I know I can trust Him. 

I remember, as a young lady and when I was in my dating age of life I would be so quick to mention the things that I thought I was missing in my life. As I verbalize those things to the men I have met in my life I started to recognize everyone felt as though they would be my saving grace, I would mention time and time again the things that I had experienced in my life with other relationships and found myself in the same space after each relationship. that was leaving any relationship where I felt there was no growth or no substance. For a long time, I would wonder to myself why I keep running away from every relationship that I seem to be in. I finally came to the conclusion that if I can leave a relationship with no regrets then that relationship should have never happened in the first place.  If I leave a relationship and it was easy to walk away and not feel an ounce of regret for leaving, then the relationship wasn’t a genuine relationship it just solved the purpose at that particular time.  I can’t blame the person for why I left, I’m sure maturity was a factor as well on my part and they were stepping stones and the pieces of the puzzle that I needed at that time.   It’s just that years and years of lessons that transpired were learned and I have grown to know they will not be repeated. I have studied, meditated, and birthed a renewed thought process. If you don’t change the way you think about life it will pass you by and the lessons you need to learn will leave you and you will repeat the very same thing you are trying to escape.   

As you grow in faith, you will learn three things known to be true for me, you can only control your thinking, you can only manage your feelings, and you should always trust God in the process. God places things in our paths to remind us of the Book of Life, which provides us with all the instructions we need to manage our way thru life. When we are in our own way we tend to make things much more complicated than God ever planned for it to be.  God is our salvation, He is our waymaker and is not a God of confusion.  Why do we get frustrated, confused, depressed, worried, and filled with anxiety? It is because we refuse to let go and trust God.  In Proverbs 1:7 “The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction”. We have a God who waits for us to call out His name.  On deck 24/7 for whatever we need.  It’s just that simple.  

It’s unfortunate that we get so caught up in the world believing we have to conform to it. We have God, why conform to the evil of the world? Our faith makes the difference, it’s not magic it’s not something that magically appears and poof all the madness gone. No, the craziness of the world happens because God has already equipped us with all we need all you have to do is apply it to your way of life.  BELIEVE, TRUST GOD AND HAVE FAITH,  MEDITATE ON THESE THINGS Philippians 4:8-9, Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are Nobel, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy-meditate on these things.  The things are which you learned and received and heard and saw in me these do and the God of peace will be with you. God walks with us and we do have free will but we must discipline ourselves to do what is right.  Just keep in mind Philippians 3:12 Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me.  I know life gets hard but you have accomplished many things, let us not forget how wonderful you really are. We focus on all the strife but let’s celebrate the blessings. Take time to celebrate the victories. They are far more than the adversities. We look at blessings as if it has to be this BIG massive thing and overlook the small blessings as well. A blessing is a blessing, big or small. Appreciate it all. Thank God for all you have! Wake up and if all you can manage to pray is THANK YOU, that is sufficient. Now go out in this world and be the wonderfully made person God created you to be and if that mountain is in your way speak to that mountain, believe and have faith, and move that mountain!!!!

Blessed by the Best, 

Lyneshia

I DO NOT OWN THE RIGHTS TO THIS SONG(Whitney Houston…I didnt know my own strength)….This song describes how I feel right now. I must commit to time with God. He has healed me on several times. When I thought I was gone. HE restored me. 🙌🏾 nothing will separate me from Him. His promises keep me encouraged. If your foundation isn’t set and you aren’t centered and connected…… let’s just say I’m trusting the process. #LoveforGodfirst #BeIntentional #BeConsistent ##BePresent

THE AWAKENING-NATIONAL HARBOUR, FORT WASHINGTON, MD

I love to go and sit by this statue. When I sit here and look at this and sit by the water it reminds me of my awakening. How I have had several adversities over the years of my life and God has pulled me through those moments I couldn’t see myself getting out of. I prayed and prayed and continue to ask God to get me through. The Bible says in Joshua 1:9 “Haven’t I commanded you to be strong and of good courage, Do not be afraid or dismayed for the Lord God is with you wherever you go” is my favorite scripture. It reminds me of not having fear and to step out on faith. God is with me wherever I know and I feel confident in that. He will never leave me or forsake me. I trust that and I trust His process. He has download in my spirit all that I need and I am grateful for it. I don’t know how I could manage it all with out Him.

I smile …

I’m so grateful to have it all. The pain, the disappointments, and the expectations of others. All of it. I struggled with so many things that should have taken me out but God saw differently. He trusted me with the things He placed before me and I am fully committed to keeping that trust with Him. He has been unwavering in my life and I ignored all the signs of grace and mercy but now with a new vision of life and having a testimony I will share with the world I am free. I wish to share my testimony with others in hope that you see God not me. You see how amazing and loving He is and will continue to be if you allow yourself to open your heart and release past traumas you have buried so deep you never knew they were there. I pray for a release for you to share your testimony with others so we can all finally come together and heal.

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We always want to give people the benefit of the doubt. We want to believe people will never let us down or disappoint us. But let’s face it, it happens. I know I had to learn the hard way that putting expectations into people is temporary and expectations of God are forever. I finally realized I have been putting too many people in my life on a pedestal where they have no business being. God is first and will always be in my life. It’s unfortunate it took a near-death experience to acknowledge I have put people in a higher place than they actually belong. I had to realize God is a jealous God and he wants us to acknowledge him in all our ways. I will admit I did believe those people I chose to put higher than God were my lack of understanding of how good God really is. When we expect God to do something for us, he ALWAYS delivers. It may not look how we envisioned it but it is definitely far more blessings and there are more to come.

Is about a teenager who isn’t having a good day but she knows what to do and who to call to make her feel better.